It’s the mid-80’s, I just met a man with deep pockets and a big heart, great Christian guy. He’s just sold his company for piles of money and is looking for a big Christian endeavor.

Viola, here’s where I come in.

So we buy land and put in cabins, for wives’ and children who are victims of domestic abuse or sexual offenders. There’s no sign and a guard gate, no one is allowed in unless escorted by the sheriff’s department, not even myself.

The second parcel of land is bought, also very private and we build a small prison system, it can only hold 24 inmates. They either volunteer to go there or are remanded into our custody by the court. They sign a civil rights waiver in front of a judge and we escort them ourselves.

They are repeat or violent sex offenders. We’ve been given a four year grant by the county to see if we can “fix” sex offenders. (spoil alert, 99% of the time you can’t).

We can do chemical castration (which we quit 120 days into the program). Electric shock and or pharmaceutical intervention.

So here’s tip number one. As a Christian psychologist, be prepared to see a depraved, and or demonic inmate or both.

Number two, there are no excuses, doesn’t matter what daddy or uncle Billy did to you as a child.

Number three, no retelling of your crime in group therapy.

Number four, you better stay prayed up and leading the most exemplary life when the legal system or demonic host (there both the same) comes after you.

There’s a lot more but we will quit there.

Oh, yeah, we had to buy several straight jackets.

We will call him Bob, he spends 250k that’s right 250,000.00 per year on sex, drugs, hookers and hospitals and plastic surgeons for the girls he damages.

There are a few whorehouses that cater to the basest, lowest forms of sexual depravity. I’m sorry I ever had to go into one to drag this guy out of there.

Warning, the worse the depravity the more corrupt political officials you will meet. I’ve had the toughest ex abc guys bail when the threats to family and friends got so bad, they couldn’t help us anymore.

So back to Bob, I first met him over the phone, he’s married, Catholic, has 5 kids, owns one of the largest businesses in a city of one million people.

His wife is beautiful, the kids all in private school, and she finally after 20 years of marriage figures out that a huge chunk of money is missing every year.

She wants me to investigate her husband, do an intervention, lock up his sorry A$$ if I have to. With enough harassment and the threat of public embarrassment we get him into counseling. For 8 years we counseled this guy. And watched as he sank deeper and deeper into depravity. The longest he went without acting out was 119 days.

He joined a church, went to bible study, had a FBI security clearance of very top secret. Finally, during one of their investigations, everything came out. They had got fooled and came to me to ask this guy to go into the program.

Now this is a bible based incarceration program. (I know sounds weird, but that’s where the Lord led us) The only one ever in existence.

After several confessions of faith, he came down with a very rare brain disease. In my heart, I believe God had enough and took him. I don’t know what happened to him spiritually. I can draw conclusions, but I want to say one thing…. Believe that anyone in your church can be Charlie Manson’s cousin!

Well, that’s as far as I want to go. Preachers, Deacons, watch over your flock, love the sheep, but get ready to put one down if you find out the cesspool they are living in starts to seep into the church. (I’m speaking allegorically here of course).

God bless from

Good thoughts

March 6, 2018

  “We have known and believed the love that God hath to us” (1 John 4:16).

  The Spirit convicts us of sins that we may be convinced of God’s cleansing. We do not deserve to be forgiven, but the Lord Jesus deserves to be trusted.

  “We find the greatest difficulty often in bringing our sorrow to God. How can I do so, some may be saying, my sorrow is the fruit of my sin? How can I take it to God? If it was suffering for righteousness’ sake, then I would, but I am suffering for my sin; and can I, in the integrity of my heart towards God, take my sorrows to Him, knowing I deserve them?

Yes: the Lord Jesus has been to God about them. This, then, is the ground on which I can go. There has been perfect atonement for all my sins; Christ has been judged for them. Will God judge us both? No; I go to Him on the ground of atonement, and God can justly meet me in all my sorrow, because Christ’s work has been so perfectly done.

The guilt which the throne detects, the altar removes. If in the light of the throne one object is seen, namely, ruined, guilty, undone self; then, in the light of the altar, one object is seen, namely, a full, precious, all-sufficient Christ. The remedy reaches to the full extent of the ruin, and the same light that reveals the one reveals the other likewise. This gives settled repose to the conscience. God Himself has provided a remedy for all ruin which the light of His throne has revealed.

  “If we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ, His Son, cleanseth us from all sin” (1 John 1:7).

God bless from


Gold Dust

March 2, 2018

  “If any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God on this behalf” (1 Pet. 4:16).

  Often the lapidary will polish the jewel with its own dust. Just so our Father makes use of the weak and carnal element of our nature to produce the mirror-like luster in which His image is finally reflected for all to see. “They shall be Mine. . . in that day when I make up My jewels” (Malachi 3:17).

Those who know the Lord best are those who have gone the deepest way. Those who go the deep way of trial do so because God puts the premium upon their knowledge of Him. They are the people who are shut up to God. But this knowledge is firstly, constitutional: that is, it is to constitute a certain kind of person and character; and secondly it is vocational: it does not end with the person concerned, but is the essence of service, in time and eternity. God is very practical, and requires that things in His service are never merely theoretical but real and true to life.

  “Our path ought to be the mold, the opportunity, for the expression and virtue of Christ’s life. Saints seek to use Him rather in order to get through their circumstances, instead of seeing in the circumstances the mold in which they are to be taught the strength and power of the Lord Jesus. May we grow in Him, knowing Him, not only as helping us through circumstances, but using the circumstances which He puts us through as opportunities for enlarging our souls in Himself.”

  “But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings, that, when His glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy” (1 Pet. 4:13).

God bless from


Jesus is tough

March 1, 2018



The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

OK, so here’s the deal, the verb “leadeth in verse two and the verb “leadeth” in verse in three are two completely different words (verbs).

In verse 2 it’s the common idea we have of how the Lord leads.

But verse 3 the word “lead” means to drive, push, trample, guide by pressure.

So when we think of “The Lord’s Psalm or the Shepherd’s Psalm, we need to see that sometimes he is the gentle shepherd (verse 2) and sometimes he has the rod and staff and has to conk us on head or drive us with pressure to go in the right direction (verse 3).

And he is the one who chooses, the carrot or the stick.

So chew on that, just something to think about.

God bless from

Pray for Roger S, back pain, going need surgery.

Pray for Sally H, super Christian, usually the happiest person you’ve ever met. She make Job, look like a sissy sometimes. Man oh man has she suffered. Keep her in prayer, for strength and endurance and to make a hard decision.

Pray for Randy K, religious, nice guy, but has no personal relationship with God, he’s at a crossroad and it might be one of his last chances.


Hee Haw

February 8, 2018

Hee Haw

Somebody asked me the other day why I preach more from the Old Testament

than the New Testament. My answer was instant, heartfelt and I don’t think I’ll

change my mind anytime soon.

It’s the same reason I’ve called this devotional site “scum like us church”

I personally relate better to the people of the O.T. their failures, their quirks, their

constant failing. When asked ‘whom am I more like in the O.T.’ my answer is

quick, simple and still probably not going to change; Balaam’s Ass, (because I’m

still surprised what comes out of my mouth) and Samson (a good looking woman

still turns my head, and physical strength has helped me get through a lot of


Most people just shake their head and walk away, a few will say “you’re kidding”

some will smile, some get insulted. I can’t see myself ever saying I’m like the

apostle Paul or like any other apostle for that much, even Thomas with all his

doubts still beats me at my best .

I love all the Greek word studies of the N.T. and the book of Romans and

Colossians will probably always be my favorites. But when it comes to the O.T.

flawed folks rock.

So like any good country song here’s to all the screwed up people we know.

God bless

Prayer request for me, pray for my neck, talk about screwed up, (no I didn’t twist

it looking at a pretty girl) I’m in some serious pain. Thank you to all the wonderful

people that keep encouraging me to keep writing these devotions.

God bless from



December 28, 2017

Hang in there

“Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations” (1 Peter 1:6).

We have our troubles. My dear friend, this world is not our home. We’re just passing through. We’ve got a home laid up somewhere beyond the blue. And, down here we have troubles and trials. You say, “Well, if I weren’t saved, maybe I wouldn’t have these trials.” Ok, listen up you’d have them anyway. “Man that is born of a woman… is full of trouble” (Job 14:1). But, listen what he says here, “Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ” (1 Peter 1:6-7).

Now, what does that mean? It means that living for Jesus is not all honey and no bees. It means that there’s going to be heartaches and tears. But, it means though our trials are many and though they are heavy, they are all under God’s control. And, notice he says, “But for a season.” Now, the idea here in verse 7, is of a goldsmith, who puts gold in a furnace. And, the idea is that he’s purifying the gold. And, they say that the goldsmith can know the gold is pure when he can see his face in it.

And, if you’re going through heaviness and heartache here don’t let that discourage you. The Lord is just simply working on you. For your good and his glory. Job said, in Job 23:10, “… when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23:10). And, the trials are for his purpose and in his time and when he’s finished you’re coming through.

God bless from

Pray for Lisa and Ty, been married 13 months and she walks out and says she wants a divorce. Ty is a wonderful guy, great husband. This is where a good guy marries a bad girl and thinks it will all work. She’s already out of town and waiting to party hard this New Year.

Pray for Lyle, great guy, has throat cancer,


The Crown

December 27, 2017

  “The God of all grace, who hath called us unto His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after ye have suffered awhile, make you perfect (mature), establish, strengthen, settle you” (1 Pet. 5:10).

  At first, the old nature hides from us. Then, we try to hide from it. But when we begin to grow in grace and in the knowledge of the Lord Jesus, we are able to face up to the awful facts concerning the old man and his condemnation at the Cross. As the Holy Spirit reveals the old man (Col. 3:9), we count upon death; as He reveals the new man (Col. 3:10), we count upon life (Rom. 6:11).

The believer, at the opening of his new course of life, never knows his own heart; indeed, he could not bear the full knowledge of it; he would be overwhelmed thereby. He graciously leads us by a circuitous route, like Moses in the wilderness, we are on a journey of self discovery. And because of His grace we are led slowly into the understanding of how great our sin and fallen nature as corrupted, in order that our apprehension of His grace may keep pace with our growing self-knowledge.

It was not for nothing that God let Satan loose upon His dear servant, Job. God loved Job with a perfect love; a love that could take account of everything, and, looking below the surface, could see the deep moral roots in the heart of His servant—roots which Job had never seen, and, therefore, never judged. What a mercy to have to do with such a God!

To be in the hands of One who will spare no pains in order to subdue everything in us which is contrary to Himself, and to bring out in us His own blessed image!

  “Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you” (1 Pet. 5:6, 7).

We to shall wear a crown of sorrows before we wear a crown of joy. Like Job we will all be tested, bear up under it because it is the mark of kinship with Christ.

God bless from

Thank you with all my heart those that comment,, hit the like button and pray. Thank you for all the bibles donated for our bible quizzes.

We have so many people emailing to be put on our prayer list, sometimes I can’t list them all. We had one guy that drove over 900 miles to hand us his prayer request, so he could be prayed over before surgery. I wept so deeply that this guy was so disconnected from any sort of community. God not only healed him but blessed him with a new heart and he is getting “plugged in” here in our little town. He’s now the unofficial greeter at Denny’s, handing out tracts and bibles and asking people if they need prayer.

God bless you all so much.


December 25, 2017

bad santa


The truth is, this is probably the best Christmas ever for me mentally and health wise. For 7 months I have had the opportunity to do nothing but spend every day in bible study, prayer worship and devotion.

Second for the first time in 5 years I almost have my IBS and Barrett’s disease under control (almost). It has been debilitating and a huge drain on me mentally and spiritually. But the last 4 weeks have been great.

Spiritually it has been amazing in spite of all the other problems. I really praise God for the trial and tribulation and without going into detail the comfort and peace of God have been a blessing.

I’m actually enjoying Christmas, which if you’ve ever read my past “I hate Christmas” rants you’d know it was a miracle.

I have one prayer for all of you, a closer walk to the Lord and growing in knowledge, wisdom, and peace.

To the all the encouragers, God bless you greatly.



December 19, 2017

In the early evening I do a lot of letter writing. I have found over the years that when people receive a letter, one they can hold in their hands it conveys a greater blessing or in this case a more stern caution.

A brother in the Lord, has wandered slightly off the beaten track. Like myself he has led a pretty wild life and the Lord has been gracious in His blessings. But like the prodigal lately he’s been more wild than mild.

23 years ago he killed his wife while driving drunk and stoned. He did his time in prison. And that’s where we met, I was the Chaplain. After getting out of prison he moved in with my family and a year later started his own business and he met a woman in our church that also had served 15 years in prison.

His wife passed of a heart attack early this year and she was the great stabilizing force in his life. She was the most gracious, tender hearted woman and was a great example of mercy and kindness. All the things he needed.

And now that she’s gone he listens to much to his past and not enough to grace.

So my dear brother please open this present early.

Two Boxes

I have in my hands two boxes

Which God gave me to hold

He said, “Put all your sorrows in the black,

And all your joys in the gold.”

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes

Both my joys and sorrows I store

But though the gold became heavier each day

The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black

I wanted to find out why

And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole

Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused aloud,

“I wonder where my sorrows could be.”

He smiled a gentle smile at me.

“My child, they’re all here with me.”

I asked, “God, why give me the boxes,

Why the gold, and the black with the hole?”

“My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,

the black is for you to let go.”

God bless from

Please keep Tim in prayer

Prayer for Rebecca D. this is a tough time for her and her sobriety.

Anthony, pray for his marriage.

Praise from Samantha, year 9 in sexual sobriety.

the long road

December 12, 2017

Why me? Why now? What is God doing? Suffering is a tool God uses to get our attention and to accomplish His purposes in our lives. It is designed to build our trust in the Almighty, but suffering requires the right response if it is to be successful in accomplishing God’s purposes. Suffering forces us to turn from trust in our own resources to living by faith in God’s resources.

Suffering is not in itself virtuous, nor is it a sign of holiness. It is also not a means of gaining points with God, or of subduing the flesh (as in asceticism). When it is possible, suffering is to be avoided. Christ avoided suffering unless it meant acting in disobedience to the Father’s will.

“In the day of prosperity be happy, But in the day of adversity consider—God has made the one as well as the other so that man may not discover anything that will be after him” (Eccl. 7:14)

All suffering is not, for instance, a product of our own foolishness, self-induced misery, or sin. It is true, however, that rarely does suffering not reveal areas of need, areas of weakness, and wrong attitudes that need to be removed like dross in the gold-refining process (cf. 1 Pet. 1:6-7).

In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (1 Peter 1:6-7)

No matter the reason, even if it is not God’s discipline for blatant carnality, it is a purifier for none of us will ever be perfect in this life.

Philippians 3:12-14 12 Not that I have already obtained it, or have already become perfect, but I press on in order that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. 13 Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

The question we must each face is not, ‘if’ we are going to have trials in life, but how will we respond to them?

1 Thessalonians 3:3 so that no man may be disturbed by these afflictions; for you yourselves know that we have been destined for this.

1 Peter 4:19 Therefore, let those also who suffer according to the will of God entrust their souls to a faithful Creator in doing what is right.

Suffering itself is not the thing that produces faith or maturity. It is only a tool that God uses to bring us to Himself so we will respond to Him and His Word. It forces us to turn from trust in our own resources to living by faith in God’s resources. It causes us to put first things first. Ultimately, it is the Word and the Spirit of God that produces faith and mature Christlike character (Ps. 119:67, 71).

talk to God, talk to a friend, get counseling, change doctors, don’t give up, express your self, be honest with your self, cry, there is a place a time when you will find yourself closer to God.

and most of all find a reason to laugh.

God bless from